i haven't written many blogs recently. i've been sorta blocked on this one. i was really feeling kinda depressed. the implication is that those of the stereotype to which i am not lumped are better than those of the stereotype to which i am lumped because the former donate more than the latter. so in the first incarnation of this post i listed all the cash, all the things, and all the time that we've spent for the benefit of others. which made me feel better. briefly. i very quickly got mad. really mad. the second incarnation of this post was me flaming you fucking asstards for blah blah blah. which also made me feel better. briefly. then i thought about standing in front of the almighty with everything i've ever done laid out like some sort of giant salad bar complete with sneeze guards. and like magic, the opinions of a few mortals just didn't matter any more.