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okay so i give a homeless dude $100. i can legitimately say, i gave a homeless dude $100. then i take it back. technically, i can still say, i gave a homeless dude $100. because i did. i just don't mention i took it back. but morally and ethically i really i can't say, i gave a homeless dude $100, because he doesn't have the $100 i gave him. and he didn't spend it. i can't claim it as a deduction on my taxes, for example. okay, so there was a teacher at a school shooting who held the door shut to keep the shooter away from the students. the shooter shot the teacher through the door. killing him. clearly, he's a hero who sacrificed his life to save others. what if it was claire bennett from heroes who held the door shut. it doesn't even hurt her to get shot. and she's only dead for a little while. is she a hero? sure. but not the same kind of hero. cause it didn't cost her anything. not even holes in her cheerleader uniform. she's a hero because she saved everyone. she's not a hero because she sacrificed everything to do it. i guess jesus is more like claire than like me and the $100. i originally wrote a blog claiming that yeah jesus died for the sins of the world. but he didn't stay dead. and when he came back to life the world became responsible for its sins again. but apparently i don't actually believe that. and perhaps it was too blasphemous. even for me.